SO WHY AM I DOING THIS?

I  ask myself this question up to 333 times a day, more if you count when I'm asleep. Other people ask me it too, usually when I'm talking about my show with that rabbit-caught-in-headlights expression, a look which says: I have no idea how I got myself into this position and the chances of me getting out of here in one fluffy bouncing piece is as likely as George Osborne being turned into Mr Popular by a current day Roger Hargreaves. So, if I'm THAT  scared, why AM i doing it???

Well, here are some 'possible' reasons:

1. I love performing
2. I love writing
3. I wanted to write something I could perform
4. I wanted to perform something I'd written
5. To entertain people and make them laugh/cry/think/feel/question
5. I like pushing my own boundaries
6. I liking creating
7. Life is too short
8. I believe in feeling the fear and doing it anyway
9. I want to improve/grow/develop as a writer/performer
10. I'm mad

and now for some reasons why I probably shouldn't be doing it:

1. It's bloody scary
2. I've never done a show on my own before
3. I'll get stage fright/forget my lines/faint or all of the above
4. It'll be a disaster
5. People will hate it
6. I'll hate it
7. I'll become ill with the stress
8. I might not want to perform ever again
9. I might not be asked to perform ever again
10. I'm mad

Right, I think it's time for some mindfulness...

SO WHAT'S IT ALL ABOUT?

When people ask me what my show is about, I tend to give them a look which roughly translates into 'Gosh, that's something I really should know, shouldn't I? Especially considering I wrote the damn thing. But, actually, if I have to sum it up to you right now, in a sentence or three, well do you know what, I have absolutely know idea how to do it?!' YOU know that look.

So, to make it easier for everybody, here is a quick brainstorm of what I think my show is about:

LOVE, HATE, LOSS, MARRIAGE, DIVORCE, RELATIONSHIPS, MENTAL HEALTH, SELFHOOD, MADNESS, SANITY, MINDFULNESS, IDENTITY, CAMPING, DATING, SEX, WRITING, THERAPY, DEATH, GRIEF, LIFE, MOTHERHOOD, CACTI, ARTICHOKES, DRUGS (prescription and non prescription), ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, PANIC-ATTACKS, SELF-HARM, DECEPTION, TRUST, FRIENDSHIP, LOYALTY, and of course BANANAS.

I hope that's helped clear things up.